DOME
of DOOM and HOME.
Here I am again, trying to find
myself. Been running in circles and I just couldn’t find the end. I can already
feel the exhaustion from inside, like a monster caged in a cell of diamond
bars, wanting to get out.
Few steps more
and I think I will pass out. But no! I have to hold on. Open your eyes! Think
of your dreams… dreams… dreams… I have lots of it. Talking to myself, I have
nothing left to do. Inhale, exhale. HUH!!!! I can barely breathe! All my life
I’ve been suffering, and now, I am here, still suffering.
Time moves
slowly. I’m in a different dimension every time I’m here in this place. My
knees are trembling. My throat dries in every step that I make. Carrying the
load of my problems, drawn into a paper of agony and despair, where is this
going? Am I wasting my time? I’m lost. No, I’m not. Am I? I am really confused…
I’m not lost physically. But I lost my
mind already. My ears had been hearing sounds that I don’t know where it came
from. I am scared. I am not scared to die here, I am scared that I might lose
on my own fears and just forget the true purpose why I am here. They say that
when you’re having doubts and you want to let go, think of the things why you
held for so long. I’ve come so far. There’s no turning back now.
I’m still here,
walking. I look up, and see nothing. It's just endless. The tears in my eyes
wanted to go out, but, I thought, I’m a big boy now, and big boys don’t cry so
I did my best to hold them inside as I continue my journey, I don’t care if it
will take me a thousand years to go there… but I will fight all the odds.
On this journey
that life has given me, there’s nothing that I could ask for more. This
suffering that I am facing right now, I know that it has a purpose. It will
make me learn that I couldn’t rush perfection. I can do it! It may take so
long. But I know, I can do it.
One deep breath
on every step, one deep breath on every second that has been wasted, one last
breath that I could give. It feels like heaven. I can see the light, I can see
the end. The end is near.
Relieved, and
yes, I am already here. The thorns on my throat seem like melted as I persisted
to swallow air for my throat had dried out. My worries are gone now. Catching
my breath, I checked the time. I spent 8 minutes walking, climbing up. Yes,
it’s the climb!
Wait?!! 8
minutes?!! it seems like I’ve been walking for almost an hour or more. It was a
very different feeling, walking at the DOME of PUP main building. It brings you
somewhere else. Seems like the time stops for awhile. Minutes felt like hours,
or even days! It was a tiring experience walking at a stairway??? Or a way to 6th
floor.
It will make you
give up, but because of your dreams, you’ll continue walking. And honestly,
Dome is not recommended for people who are trying to chase the time on their
first subject, it will make you suffer, it will bring you DOOM!!! But, when
you’re having a conversation with your friends or with someone who lightens up
your day, I’d say that, DOME is the right way for you. Dome will make you feel that
you’re at HOME.
Somehow, Dome
didn’t bring me much suffering, I am just describing my very first experience
going up to highest floor of PUP Main Building using The DOME. Even though I am
just a freshman student and I am just finishing the first semester of my
college life, Dome had given me and my classmates lots and lots of happy
memories, and I am expecting that he’ll give us more J
Just bring a bottle of water…
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Ito yung Dome. Paikot na daanan kung tinatamad kang maghagdan. Imaginin niyo na lang. Pa spiral ang hugis.
Just bring a bottle of water…
***
Ito yung Dome. Paikot na daanan kung tinatamad kang maghagdan. Imaginin niyo na lang. Pa spiral ang hugis.
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